Umm...? That's how I've been feeling. some people ask the question "How do you know when God is speaking or calling you to something?" I've been there. I have asked that question. In fact, I've wrestled with it quite a bit. I came out in the other side realizing that it's never exactly the same. God has plans and I firmly believe that he speaks to us in ways that will most glorify himself in those plans. That being said, I'm at a completely different question now. How do I "go" without a clear destination? Here is what I know for sure:
1) God has placed a love and a longing for the people and the country of Uganda in my heart. I do believe, without a doubt, that God has plans for me in Uganda.
2) God does not want me in Uganda right now. That one is a little more complicated. But I know that I am supposed to be in the states right now so here I am!
3) God does NOT want me just wasting time while I'm here. I know that I can't just find "fillers" for my time until God says I can go back to Uganda. That applies to my job, my relationships, etc. I need to be fully here while I am here.
4) God is very clearly calling me to "go." I know that He wants me to get moving and I'm ready to just start walking until I find what he has for me but I don't even feel a nudge in the right direction!
So how does one "go" when they don't know where they are going? I would love to hear what you have to think about this! (I know I'm going out on a limb here thinking that anyone other than my best friends and my mom actually read this blog. Haha) leave a comment with what you think it looks like to just "go" even if it's unclear what the destination is.
Thanks! -Callie
P.S. Since I wrote this blog a little bit has changed. I had been searching job ads on Craigslist and came across an ad for a job at a children's home in Austin. This was the first time I had felt like God was saying "There! Go there!" so I applied! I haven't heard back yet and I would appreciate your prayers! I want what God wants for me so just pray that His will be done. I really do think this opportunity would be amazing but I know that His plans are ALWAYS best. Thanks!
So glad you are being sensitive to the Holy Spirit, and making the most of where you are now! Praying for your continued preparation, and that you'll be able to use this time mostly to just BE with Jesus! Love you friend, and I'm so excited for the work God has started in you!!
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