Your sovereign hand will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed, and You won't start now
I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours, and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior"
(Oceans by Hillsong United)
"When oceans rise"...
I was sitting at a stop light today listening to this song and thought to myself, "what is my ocean rising?" I think if someone asked me this 6 months - a year ago I would have said that my ocean rising was fear of the unknown and this huge leap of faith I was about to take by going to Uganda.
My ocean has changed.
In this very moment my ocean rising is a skin infection of my sweet baby girl that I can do nothing about. It's a fear that I left her when she was the most vulnerable and now when she "needs me" I can't be there. It's a realization that I actually have to be able to stand on what I believe in order to survive this. It's a fear that I won't make it...
I guess my ocean really hasn't changed that much. It's still fear.
Praise God that His grace abounds in deepest water. Praise him for holding me in His embrace when oceans are rising. Praise Him.
"This God—his way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him. For who is God, but the Lord ? And who is a rock, except our God?— the God who equipped me with strength and made my way blameless."
(Psalm 18:30-32 ESV)
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